Sept 14th

OMG
Tomorrow, everything will be revealed.
I wanna see the truth that ive been waiting.
I dono if i can accept but i just wanted to know.
Im scared

Senseless~



I'm leaving Brunei for a week to visit my grandpa in Kuching.
If nothing went wrong, i'll leave Wednesday morning,
AND
I havent even pack yet.
Usually i need a week to pack if im gonna leave the country.
Yes, im this crazy!



I don feel like going tho
COS
No laptop, No PSP, No Internet, No facebook, No deardear, No Aircon, NOOOOO
BUT
Can see Gonggong, Can have fresh air, Can have clean water, Can enjoy, Can shop
AND
Dear promises me to go on a vacation during CNY, so we won be seeing Gonggong for long time if i didn take this chance. This is the only reason why i wanna go back actually. Since im free, i should take this visit. Arghhh, dear, i won be seeing u in a week or more, i started missing u already.



:(

Boredom

Have been taking care of my 2 cousins since last night
N im thinking if i should have kiddo in the future
My answer is: NO WAY
ahaha

Kids are really troublesome, u need to take care of their foods, play with them, u cant just leave them n stay in the room do your own thing(like i always do)!!!
U need to put them to sleep b4 u do, make sure u hear every words they said, n "qian jiu" them whatever they want or like.

OMG
This is just not me.
I mean
I like to play with kids
I like babies
I like to disturb them
I can bring them out
Im willing to take care of them(for 1hr?)

BUT
People always ask me
When r u getting married?
When do u wanna have kids?
Oh please
NOOOO
I cant stand it
I want my own w
I dislike noises
I dislike messy
(Turn to vision to the floor
Michelle just mess up my room n gone out!!!
Screaming: Michelle, clean up the mess!!!!!)

See, how am i suppose to have my own kids?
I just cant!
Ok, for 2 days
I can

Lets see hoe messy my room gonna be.

I miss u dear, come back asap!!!

Lazy = Annie Jee

Im so lazy to blog recently
Well
Im at home
Im free
Ive plenty of time
There's internet connection
N i just feel lazy
Maybe it was bcos of my mood
I blog when i feel sad
I blog when im happy
I blog when there's special occassion

Im addicted to Facebook more than a month
But im thinking to shut it down
Just some personal reason

So~

Should i??

单身

最近
不管是太阳公公还是月亮婆婆出现的时间
我~
都是一个人
从几何时
我爱上了一个人
一个人喝咖啡
一个人听歌
一个人吃饭
一个人逛街
一个人上网
一个人聊天
一个人睡觉
更~
一个人哭泣

就算
他在我身边
我也觉得我是一个人

当
两个人在一起
就算是睡在同一张床上
可是
做的事情并不一样
我还是觉得
我是一个人

一个人已变成习惯
你在我身边
我感觉不到你的存在
我俩怎么了
没有人知道
没有人察觉

发现
我原来是单身

你知道你对我的伤害有多大吗？

不管你说了什么
不管你做了什么
我总是轻易的原谅你

你是我的好朋友
并不代表你可以偏低我
并不代表你可以侮辱我

你说的话
让我很伤心
让我很难过
让我的泪流不停

你说
那些话
不是说给我听的
可是
有那么巧吗

我对你的关心
你不当一回事
却
一直说好听的话给我听
你到底想怎样

如果你想继续伤害我
请你走出我的世界
我真的不想再继续被伤害

也许我不该说这些话
可是
我真的忍无可忍了
一次又一次
我的心变得不完整
就因为你的伤害